Another Week To Go!
Still waiting for the score report from my July 17th MCAT. While it shouldn’t bother me to wait, being that I knew before I went it would not be released until August 18th, 2009, it doesn’t make the waiting period go by any faster or easier. Perhaps because so much uncertainty was present for the exam and so much rides on this one very important test – it raises the importance level up a huge notch and with that comes a lot of anxiousness and anxiety. I know win, place or show, come August 19th I will feel better to the degree that I will now if I will be retesting on September 10th or not. I keep finding that I keep thinking about the exam and all the answers I recall that I know I got correct and all of those that I can’t recall or even the few I know I goofed on and made bad choices on and got wrong. It’s so difficult to express how it feels to have everything you’ve worked so hard for come down to one test, I am not a gambler – so I’m not used to “letting it ride” I suppose. It certainly feels like an “all or nothing” game at the moment. Perhaps I shouldn’t be posting this – I feel like it shows some vulnerability – but then again I guess it also some the humanistic reality of this process as well, for I am not the only pre-med to feel like this – I am sure all the others out there share in this moment as well. Keeping my fingers crossed that I performed well that day! Hopefully next update will include a glowing MCAT score 